Thursday, March 24, 2011

Changes

I had my last OB appointment today. I am feeling pretty crampy now. The doctor is ripening my cervix using the balloon method. My mom has come over to save the day and "be me" today. She is doing my errands and packing my hospital bag and taking care of my kiddos for me. Mom's are the greatest, especially mine.

I am sitting on the recliner trying to count contractions. I am not very good at that. I have a hard time distinguishing contraction pain from my general tightness and the baby moving and just my overall hurting.  But one way or another I am very excited that I will no longer be pregnant in the next 24 to 36 hours.

Last night I had an awful night. I couldn't fall asleep. I just had this foreboding feeling and tons of anxiety. I get that every now and then since Camille's accident. I laid in bed with "worst case scenarios" playing over and over in my head till midnight when I finally got up and went downstairs to watch some TV. That seemed to settle my brain and I was able to fall asleep around 2 a.m.

I am not sure if the hospital I am going to this time has internet access in the delivery rooms like the one I had Noble did. If it does, I will blog from the hospital and let you all know how things go. If not you will have to wait till Saturday or Sunday.

This has been a big month in my family. An emotional one. I have other things to post about. Like the fact that my parents have just sold their home, my childhood home, the place I grew up, the home Jonathan and I lived in when we moved to Las Vegas from California, Camille's first home. It is an emotional thing. One I have cried a good deal of tears over and try not to think about too much. But I have a post in me on it. I will write it a bit later as they get closer to actually moving. They have to be out by May 15th but could move as soon as mid April depending on when they settle on the house they want to buy.

Change. It is inevitable, necessary, often painful, and hard to swallow. But it is part of life. And in the end, every change moves us forward and molds us a bit more into who we will eventually become.

16 comments:

Brittany said...

Excited to see your little one! Hope everything goes well and I get really excited to not be pregnant too!

Sue said...

Good luck, Stephanie. I hope all goes well and will keep you in my prayers.

=)

Bridget said...

Good luck with the new baby!

Jan S said...

Sending my prayers your way, Stephanie, that you have an uneventful and safe labor/birth! Gosh, the balloon method for your cervix sure doesn't sound comfortable, though. Hang in there!

P.S. I totally understand your emotions with your parents selling your childhood home. I would be a wreck! My parents still live in their home of 50 years and I can't imagine it being "gone." Change is so hard...

Diana...aka...MeMe said...

God Bless and good luck!

Kami Beck said...

Hi Stephanie--You're ready to deliver! You'll do awesome and your baby boy will be heaven on earth. We'll pray for you and look forward to pictures. Love you tons!

Marcy said...

Good luck hun!! I will be thinking of you!

Chelsea said...

i definitely relate to angt over selling the childhood home. because i moved around a bit as a kid, i felt like my grandparents' home, the home my mother grew up in, was the one constant in my life. it was home even when nowhere else felt like home. there were a lot of emotions involved when they sold it.

good luck with the delivery, the new baby, and all the changes. you are admirably strong!

Cardalls said...

My parents sold my childhood home (Ilived in for 25 years) several years ago. It was very hard for me as it symbolized my childhood, stability, etc.

Good luck with that new baby and kiss those sweet feet and nose for me!

Anonymous said...

good luck stephanie, you will do just wonderful. i will be praying for you and your new ray of sunshine. the whole balloon thing ekk, sounds painful. its amazing to me with all the new things they come up with. anywho, i hope you get a little bit of rest.

hugs

a.k.a. Jack said...

We're so sad about your parents' move too. :( Hopefully they'll find a good house closer to you guys. Good luck with the delivery. I hope all goes well.
Love Ya!

Brad, Rebecca, Jacob said...

One thing my husband and I do when we can't fall asleep at night is turn Conference on. He has an android phone and we just go to the church's website and click on a session of Conference. Works like a charm almost every time. I'm not sure if that's a good thing for when Conference comes in April, but for now it's been nice going to sleep to the words of our prophets (used only on nights when it's hard to get to sleep). Good luck and I hope you have that baby soon!

Ryan*Kendra*Kenz said...

Im so excited for you. These last few hours are so amazing. To know you will be holding the closest thing to God and Camille. Its amazing. Im praying for you. You are super women!

April said...

many prayers and happy thoughts to you and your family for a safe delivery of your new little man!

plus, i have to say that i got teary eyed hearing about the selling of your parents house. i honestly can't even imagine. my parents still live in the house that i grew up and lived in until i moved at 22 (except for the few semester's i lived on a college campus). i can't imagine the feelings and emotions of losing such a home.

Darleen said...

I've been thinking about you ALL day today! Good luck. But I know it will be three pushes and he'll be out.

I can't believe your parents sold their house???!!! I'm so sad.

cat said...

stephanie -

we are praying for you and we are soooo excited to meet this new little champion. noble is so lucky to get a brother. isn't it cool to think that harrison and camille have been hanging out?

i'd love to help in any way i can!