Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Night

It is night. Late at night. I am about to go up to bed. But for me it is a special night and I wanted to mark it with a post. I am happy tonight. I am alone and it is late and I am happy. Nothing has happened to make me have some artificial high. My house isn't all clean and sparkley (which would definitely make me happy). No I just feel good.

This is the first night I have felt like this since Camille died. I have been fine other nights. But those are usually when other people are around or there are reasons to make me happy. Nights have been the hardest. My mind get tired at night and in the lonely waking hours I have often come here to the blog to get my feelings out before going to bed. Night is when the wanting and the missing and the questioning has come most forcefully.

But tonight - September 9, 2009 - (It is 12:01 now on 9.9.9) tonight I feel great.

11 comments:

Anonymous said...

Excellent.

Love,

Jane

Rach said...

Wonderful. I hope you enjoyed it. :o)

shanan said...

wow. this is great. i hope you celebrated with some form of chocolate or BR's mint chocolate chip ice cream! :D

Sue said...

Healing is a wonderful thing...not quick, not steady, not ever fully completed...but wonderful.

=)

Tiffany said...

Steph,

I just love ya! Thank you so much for your kind email last night. I got it this morning and it was just what I needed. I am so thankful for you. Wish you lived closer!!

tif

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Lena Baron said...

I loved how Sue put it. I'm so glad you felt at peace last night. I hope you had a good day to follow!

Bacardi Mama said...

So happy for you. I hope you have many more happy nights like this one.

Samantha said...

I hope you have many many many more happy nights. It must feel great. She's smiling!

Angie Larkin said...

I just took a big happy breath for you. Thanks for sharing.

Anonymous said...

I wish for you, many more happy nights and days.