Sunday, May 3, 2009

Babies Blessed

We had two babies blessed in church today. First a little girl, then a little boy. 

Lauren was sitting on my lap (what is left of it at least) during these blessings. After the little boy was blessed. I said "Look at that tiny little baby boy. Isn't he cute? Pretty soon you will have a little brother just like that."

"But, mama, I still want a girl baby," she says to me. 

"I know and maybe someday we will have another little girl baby, but it will be fun to have a little brother."

"But, mama, I really liked Camille."

"Yes Lauren. I love Camille too, and we miss her huh? But even if we had a girl baby it wouldn't be Camille. And if we don't ever have another girl baby, you will always have Camille. She will always be your baby sister and when you get to play with her again she will still be little and cute just like she was."

The months pass. The memories grow dimmer. The waves of grief hit less frequently. Yet still the hole, the missing, the longing for her presence remains. I feel it for myself and in conversations like today's I feel it for her sisters as well.

Sister's in pajamas 
Adoring new sleeping baby Camille
May 12, 2007

17 comments:

The Gould Family said...

beautiful picture. beautiful story.

Allison said...

LOVE that picture. Love it when you post new ones we've never seen before. Thanks for letting strangers in, and good luck with your baby boy coming any day now! I can't believe how patient you are, I would be going crazy.

Heather said...

What a beautiful picture.

Susy said...

Thank you for sharing! I know I write this most of the time, but you inspire me on a daily( scoop ) basis! Thank you. Have a wonderful delivery....when it comes...

Marylin said...

Steph I never met your sweet Camille in this life but I miss her for you. I miss her for her sisters, honestly, I hope that in the life to come I will get to see all your children together again. Camille I am sure is keeping your little boy safe and in good company in the days before he arrives. Thank you for sharing this sweet conversation and I love that picture. All my love

merideth said...

i love reading about your sweet family. long time reader but not yet a commenter.
this post was beautiful.
thank goodness we know that you will see her again. that thought makes my heart happy for you.
good luck this week with your new baby.

byumomof4 said...

Such a sweet picture.
It is such a blessing to your children that you recognize their loss along with your own...
your family is truly blessed to have you.

Julie said...

this picture is breathtaking. absolutely glowing.

be blessed... can NOT wait to hear of your sweet tender baby Nobel's birth.

you sound like you are in a peaceful place... get some sleep! :-)

Jan S said...

That is one of the sweetest pictures I have EVER seen!!!! You are such an amazing family. Thanks for sharing your beautiful moments with us. We've learned so much from your faith and love!

shanan said...

*Smiles*

Thanks Steph!

Amanda said...

Once again, you have made me cry. I think I relate to this post more today than I would have any other time. My cousin committed suicide last Tuesday and her funeral was on Sat.

I'm still feeling that huge gaping hole and know that I always will. So now I am working though my own grief and hope that I am as graceful about as you are.

Much love to your family, Stephanie, as you await your Noble little man. I know your girls will love him to pieces once he's here.

Janice said...

You continue to inspire me. You are so richly blessed with those four beautiful girls, especially the one whose now an angel. Wishing you great luck as you bring yet another one of those precious spirits on this side of the veil.

Chelsa said...

just the picture makes me cry. i feel the same way... yesterday was 3 months since we lost andon. some days it feels like years and some days it feels like it just happened. my heart hurts not only for myself, but also for our 4 yr old brycen... he misses him so much. :( i so look forward to seeing them play together in heaven.

Karisa Lynn said...

Such a sweet picture!! You and your family are always in my thoughts. I can't wait to see pics of Noble. :)

Have a wonderful week.

jimnalli said...

What a very sweet picture

Lauren said...

What a precious picture! Good luck with this week!! Can't wait to see little Noble's pictures :)

2thfairy said...

I love sweet teaching moments like that!